4 Sept 08, 1.28am
I haven sleep even i feel tired… I really hope know can lying on bed somemore outside was raining. I really scare, scare until cant sleep, i also hope can have some medicine that can make me no need sleep for few days… Im keep asking myself wat so scare??? comm tech only ma….
I think i scare becoz of some affected reason by my coursemark. Until now i haven see my coursemark, coz i know i get suckss mark… i feel scare to c it…. From my hear i oledi know the result… Tis is also first time i will search info from net becoz of tis sub exam…..
I really hope someone can help me, but before tat if i have tis kind of negative thinking, even how much they put effort to help also no use…. Really thanks to those my frenz, they ask me to join their study group, i also want but i know tat not my style and i more prefer alone study…. i know study group can share info, but not suit me….
Juz now i scare until feel wanna cry, but i keep telling myself, dun waste the time to cry, save the time to study well…. exam haven come then i wan cry, really useless, finally i did, i din cry, but when write tis blog, i oledi waste some time…
Lastly, i only can say, i really dun wan take SUP again… i know how to write scare…. Study hard…. Study hard…… Dun scare ya!!! u can do it de…. trust urself… exam nia, scare wat, come la…. fight wit it…. sure u can win……
Juz now chat wit my group member, he told me tat our assignment very low mark, can b say the lowest in class… Tis time cham liao… going to die…. How come?? Tats y i change my mindset, i was thinking tat, not to c how much effort u put or have, must also c the skill….. If a person very hardworking on it, but it wont have skill, at the end…… no point….
Now i cant blame anything…. juz understand more more in tat sub…. HELP~ HELP~ Someone can help me…… Haiz…. feel disapointed to get those mark, i dun think i will go back sch n c my result…. If c again, i will more to jump from high building…..
If conclude everything, act all my coursework mark not so high…. Can someone help me to rise up more mark in coursework???? Dunno how to describe my feeling…. Cant say sad, Cant say happy…. Juz say BLUR!!!!!
K la…wish all my frenz good luck in exam ya!!! I going to die la….
ATTENTION to all frenz,
I know u all concern me but plz DUN force me…. I know how to do….. U think i dun wan add mark meh??? who dun wan if can add mark??? but do u know i get sucksssss mark, how i going to face sir??? u tell me la… I also dunno… So better dun ask me to add mark anymore…. I really HATE…. is HATE…. u know??? u all not me, u all wont understand my feeling…
U think i wan tis kind of mark meh??? Same word…. I wont blame anyone…. i will blame myself…. N plz dun ask my c sir, k? i malu to face him….. thanks aaron, i know u concern of me, i know u wan me c him, but pls dun force me, if not i will block u in msn…. im serious….
Everytime when i unhappy or serve down i also need to show im strong in front of everyone…. n i only can cry or blame behind u all…. u think it is easy to me??? sometime strong person will also fall down.. sometime strong person also need someone to support them…. sometime strong person also need someone lend shoulder to them…… But even how… i will still choose b the strong person in front of u all….
I will always tell myself b strong…. coz i wan to b a strong person in future…
Anyway, thanks again to u all…. N dun worry…. i will b fine soon…. Give me some time……